In the late 1990's, I was a Scientology "
Clear" who was being told that I was "at risk" and in danger of dying or going insane if I did not buy my next steps on the
Bridge to Total Freedom. This message was straight from the "technical" writings of L Ron Hubbard himself, and was my religion at the time - a religion that had religious beliefs with sales techniques like these built into them.
Wow.
Anyway....
Back then, I had accumulated around $30,000 to $35,000 of crushing credit card debt for Scientology services. About $12,000 of that debt was being charged at around 25% interest because I had made late payments a few times. I was told, and I believed at the time, that all I needed to do was get on a Scientology course and my life would get better.
And so, as a Scientologist, I believed what I was told because it was, after all, my religion.
I had told them that I was not going to go into debt any more for anything in my life, and that I had purchased this course (for $6,000) as the last thing I would ever go into debt for, and I was going to go up the Bridge to
OT without going into debt for anything else. Everyone agreed with me at the time - to get me to buy the course. They all agreed they would "work with me" - without going further into debt - to help me "go OT" over the next weeks and months while I attended the course.
So I got onto course to keep moving through the "No Interference Area", the one where you'll die or go insane if you don't, and to keep learning more Scientology so that my life would improve.
The sales crush never stopped. Every day I came to course, I would be hit up to buy more and more things. From the time I left my car in the parking lot at L Ron Hubbard Way to the door of AOLA 1 block away, I would be approached to buy something at least 3-5 times. Then, once inside AOLA, I would be approached by two or three or more of their sales staff to buy more things - despite our "agreement".
I had explained my finances multiple times to each of these Scientology salespeople. They knew how much money I made at my job, which credit cards I had, what the balance was on each, and I had explained to them that I was on course to get Scientology tech in on my life, to straighten out my finances and to get out of debt. This financial situation of mine was explained in great detail, with documents, for hours at a time, over and over, for weeks.
But that didn't stop them from continuing to try to wear me down, to sell me my OT Package, by going into $35,000 more credit card debt, every single week.
After weeks of this insanity, my Scientology Sales Person, Tim Edwards, approached me with another Scientology sales person. They said that they wanted to talk to me before course. They took me into a small room and shut the door. Each arranged their chairs in front of the door with me facing them at the back of the room. The larger Scientology sales person turned and flipped the lock on the door and looked at me. "Alanzo", he said, "We are going to talk to you about going OT."
Tim Edwards began. He said that I had been "dramatizing" my OT 3 case for too long. And that my "OT case" was putting stops in my own way to going OT. He said that the debt I had accumulated for Scientology services were my case's way of ensuring that I would never go OT, and that we were going to handle this right now.
I told him that I have done many conditions and applied all kinds of Scientology to my debt situation, and that going into more debt for Scientology services was not ever going to happen. So if they had another way for me to get my OT package without going into debt for it, I was all ears. I told them that, as a "Clear", my self-determinsim on this was quite strong, and so if they had it in mind that I was going to go into debt for this, they were very much mistaken.
Tim Edwards then told me that
until I had done OT 3, I had no self-determinism at all. He told me that everything that I was telling him right now was coming from my OT level "case", which does NOT want me to go OT.
This actually shocked me awake. My religious beliefs taught me that only a "Clear" could be self-determined because he had cleared away his "reactive mind", which was the thing that ruined his self-determinism. I had spent many years in Scientology, and a lot of money and time out of my life working to reach "Clear". And now that I was "Clear", I saw that the goal posts were being moved on me in a very profound way. And here were two people who had me locked in a room, telling me that everything I was saying about my own financial situation was insane, and that I needed to simply listen to them and do what they said.
It didn't work. I began showing them L Ron Hubbard references about how Scientology organizations should never go into debt for anything. They brushed them all aside.
Then Tim blurted out what I needed to do. He told me that I just needed to open up
another credit card, to pay for my OT III package today at the "buy now" price of $35,000, putting me fully $75,000 in credit card debt, and then just
declare bankruptcy for the whole thing.
Sitting there in that locked room, with two Scientology salespeople, I said, "Wait a minute, Tim. I got into Scientology to win at life, not to lose at it. Declaring bankruptcy is losing at life."
Tim Said, "Look at it this way, Alanzo: Let's say you're dead and you
are looking back on your life. On one hand, you went bankrupt. But on
the other hand, you went OT III!"
I stood up and started screaming.
"What??? What is this? The "Now You're Dead Close"??? I've never heard of that one!"
The two of them stood up and pushed me back down into my chair. I looked at them, at the room, and what I was being told. In a flash, I got exactly what was happening to me.
A physical struggle ensued. I lunged for the door and they tried to stop me from reaching the lock. I began yelling and cursing loudly as I struggled with them and disturbing other sales people at this end of the building. I finally got past these guys, unlocked the door, straightened myself up, and walked out.
I was still a Scientologist, but not for long. I would not be able to fully unravel Scientology, and the brainwashing techniques built into it, for another few years. But this incident was one which went a long way to waking me up from its hold on my mind and life.
After this incident, every move Scientology made toward me, every piece of mail, every phone call, screamed "CULT! YOU ARE IN A CULT, ALANZO!"
And that perception would never leave me.
Scientology is a complex labyrinth, a toxic pool of spiritual deception. And this was the experience which, more than any other, helped to wake me up from it and find my way out.
Thank you to the
St Petersburg Times for exposing Scientology for what it is.
By the way, I never did go into debt for anything else in Scientology. I got away from those people and never did declare bankruptcy, either. Fully disconnecting from those Scientology vampires allowed me to pay off my credit card debt and get myself into better financial shape than I have ever been in my life.
Leaving Scientology was the best thing I've ever done. Thank you Tim Edwards and the whole Advanced Organization of Los Angeles, for being who you were trained to be by L Ron Hubbard, and finally waking me up to what Scientology is all about.